I am so excited I can't contain myself!

Today on my favorite (Ebay) we purchased front row tickets to KA the Cirque Show at MGM grand. I will actually be in Vegas watching KA in the front row on New Years Day. Unbelievable! After a bit of a rough year I can't believe that we are starting 2008 like this. I can not tell you how excited I am to be spending time as an adult!

I am starting to freak a little about leaving the kids. Today I typed- yes typed- my Mother a 4 page report on how to take care of the boys. I'm sure they will be fine but I have NEVER left town before, we've done nights away, but were still close enough we could come home if something happened. I hate to say it but it will probably be good for the boys especially Aidan he is VERY dependant on Mommy and I'm not saying it's a bad thing but he probably will benefit from my time away. I can't say I won't miss and worry about them though.

I wish everyone a Happy New Year. I hope that 2008 brings you everything you are hoping for.

Christmas

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. We had a wonderful time with family and friends. It was so much fun watching Alex this year, everything to him was amazing from Santa, to family festivities, to PRESENTS. Sorry that he thought everyone who walked in the door automatically brought a present. I'll have to work on that. Aidan seems to be more into his brothers things then his own. He actually can walk with his walker across the living room now which scares me a little since Alex did that at 1 not 9 months. I guess it's true that the second child does things more quickly because they watch the oldest.
Yesterday, during dinner Aaron's Mom mentioned someone less fortunate then us. It made me really think about what we have and how blessed we are to have our family and friends with us and thinking of us this holiday season. There are so many people less fortunate then we are in this world and so many who were lonely this holiday season. It makes you wonder why we worry about such trivial things instead of just cherishing every moment we have with one another. Hopefully I can remember these thoughts everyday...

Love to all and Happy Holidays.

For my snow loving friend Cheryl!

Love you!

Our Sweet Alex

I was prepared to write a blog today about Alex's Christmas Program at school but I was so impressed with this that I had to share how sweet our little boy is. Today after the program "which was wonderful" the kids were surprised by Santa. After Alex told Santa he wanted Ninja turtles I asked Santa what he wanted with his cookies and he said 'Chocolate Milk'. I found this just a few minutes ago under the tree. How sweet is this kid?

Just a typical day at the Julian's, UNTIL...

Friday was a typical day at the Julian's but everything changed during Alex's nap time. Aidan was napping, I had completed my exercising, and jumped in the shower since Aaron and I were going on a date. I decided to check on Alex when I was done, (not to mention that he checked to see where I was before all of this happened) and when I opened the door all I could see was Christmas wrapping paper everywhere. I was stunned, I don't think I even said anything but gathered up the presents and took them into the living room. I just thought, oh my goodness he's seen everything, with the exception of one present and his Santa gifts he did. He opened Daddies presents, Aidan's, and even Grandma's. The only ones he left were two that he knew were for our friends since they were a different size, I guess he remembered. I walked back into his room and all he said was, "Mommy can I have that Power Ranger movie now?" I told him I didn't know if he would get any presents and that I was very angry and he needed to stay in his room for his nap. I just didn't know what to do I was shocked. We ended up having a talk about when we open presents, why we do that, and how it was inappropriate for him to open his presents when he knew to wait until Christmas. Anyway, I won't put any more presents under the tree again until they are maybe in their teens...

In 5 years our family has gotten large!

The lighting of the Christmas tree

I have worried about the Christmas tree this year since Aidan is crawling and getting into everything so we decided to go ahead and risk it. Alex was thrilled to put up the tree and was a wonderful helper, however, it wasn't Aidan I should have worried about. Alex takes off the ornaments and puts them into rows, tries to plug and unplug the lights, takes off the ribbons etc. He also is the one getting into the presents so they are now on top of my Grandma's china cabinet. He is so excited about Christmas this year and little Aidan just watches the lights and his brother running around and laughs. Alex has two Christmas programs coming up so I'll be sure to update you all on how they go. Aaron will also have to figure out how to help both boys put on the topper next year!

Take care and Merry Christmas.

Santa letters

We just finished Santa letters since Mrs. Clause is coming to Alex's school tomorrow to pick them up for delivery to the big guy himself. Alex told Santa he was a good boy, which he is, and asked for teenage mutant ninja turtles, chaotic players (I will have to see if they even have those), a pirate ship and island, and airport toys since Daddy brought one from his last trip. Alex also helped with Aidan's letter and said he was a good baby, which he is, and asked for baby teenage mutant ninja turtles, a stuffed animal, a jack in the box, and I wanted to ask for food for the little guy since that is actually his favorite but we refrained. Santa will be getting bunny milk and cookies for his treat. Gotta love Christmas.

Girls...

I picked up Alex today from pre-school and the first thing he said was, "Faith likes me!" Ok, I said and I'm thinking "Oh No" she likes him. What does that mean in 3 year old language? We'll apparently that means that he likes her too since he made a Christmas tree for her and she made one for him. My son, the player, my goodness. Amy I will not let him stray for long!

My Mentor

My mentor and now friend Jackie just let me know that her mother passed away on Thanksgiving. I recieved the message and then thought about how highly she must think of me to include her in her thoughts at this time. Jackie is one of the greatest women I have ever met and her husband who was my college professor is one in the same. I learned so many things from both of them and could only hope to one day have someone think of me as I do them. Jackie was so understanding, patient, and caring with her patients and taught me so many things. I could never repay her for the values she instilled in me. I am happy that her mother is now at peace after her battle and that Jackie can feel at peace herself for the things she did for her mother in her last years. If you pray please take a moment out of your time for them.

Jackie loves elephants!

What are you thankful for?

This is what Alex says our family is thankful for:

Alex is thankful for choo-choo trains
Aidan is thankful for Alex and his jumper (jumperoo)
Caesar is thankful for doggy treats
Mommy is thankful for her family- I helped
and the best
Daddy is thankful for chocolate

Kids are so perceptive!!!

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!

What a wonderful world.

Thank you to everyone that gave us anniversary wishes this weekend. We had a wonderful time getting away and spending time together. It's funny, I thought alot about marriage and we talked about what our lives together mean to each other and how we can't wait for another five years with one another and what life will bring us. Aaron is a wonderful man that I know would never do anything to hurt me. Sure marriage brings ups and downs but one thing I am sure of is that our marriage won't end until as our vows said 'death do us part', which hopefully is in another 60 years!!! Thanks again to everyone for your wishes.

True Love

Happy Anniversary- tomorrow...

Happy Anniversary to my love. I can not believe we've been together for nine years much less married for five. It has been a wild ride moving here with nothing to fall back on but us and actually making it. You have made all of my dreams come true from getting married, to getting a house, then our dog Caesar, and the most perfect two boys in the world. You even went over and beyond allowing me to do what I love which is staying home with the boys- even with a Masters degree- I know. I love you with all of my heart and am so lucky to have found the man of my dreams. Thank you and Happy Anniversary.

PS- I can't wait to go to our special place!

Stuck in my teens with Reality TV!

I don't know how many of you know this but I am a reality show junkie. It has been so wonderful having Tivo now because I can tape them instead of looking through E, MTV, and VHI for one of the 10 times they will show the episode again during the week. Anyway, this season I have loved the lines from The Hills. I had the line "Truth and Time Tell All" on one of my blogs but changed it because it sounded kinda worrisome. This week the line was 'Forgive and Forget' but the catch is she wants to do both forgive and forget the person who has betrayed her. I have always been a kind person. I can't remember anyone in my life that has made me mad enough to want to forget them, now I can. It's an odd feeling and even though you wish someone out of your life you don't wish them harm or bad. Anyway, pray (not literally) for Aaron since I continuously make him watch these silly shows. I used to say it was because my job was so stressful and REAL that I watched them for amusement and a little dose of something not so thought provoking. I don't have that excuse now I just really like watching real people do silly things!

3 year old language

We'll it's been a sick house at the Julians. Alex started it with the croup, then Aidan, now Aaron and I are sick. This virus has been lasting about a week and then your back to normal. Sorry to all of the friends we gave it too. Anyway, I know that I'm sick when I'm I have little to no patience with Alex. Luckily he says the silliest things that make me laugh so I can't be mad at him for too long.

Here's some of Alex's language this week:
Mom, that is the biggest pirate ship I never saw!
Mom, Spiderman is the best movie I never saw!
*** My favorite- Mom, my eyes are bawking and chickening. What's wrong with them?***

Where do they come up with these things?

And when do boys get over Superhero's? Thank goodness they aren't to expensive. We now have the Power Rangers, Batman, Spiderman, Dr. Octopus, The Green Goblin, Rhino, Superman, and the list goes on and on. Thank goodness that he knows he can only get toys when he sells his own- or Mommy sells them...

We'll anyway that's my update for the week. I hope everyone is well and enjoying the fall weather.

Take care!

Were going to Vegas baby!

I am so excited! My post is a little premature but I am so excited I had to share. Aaron and I finally chose a place to go on vacation for our anniversary/Christmas gift to each other. I haven't been many places on my own just your typical Panama City for spring break and I have been to Jamaica and Myrtle Beach with Aaron. Anyway, it's not like we are huge gamblers because I don't think we have been to the boat since before I was pregnant with Alex but it's a vacation where you can hang out and well 'what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas right'!

Have a good week!

Happy Halloween

We had a wonderful Halloween. We started the day off with Alex's school party. It included a parade, 3 games, and 2 crafts. Aidan enjoyed the party sleeping and I did the craft table. Never thought I would be crafty but you end up taking on new roles all the time as a mother. We had fun with Grandma visiting for trick-or-treating and going around the neighborhood. What a joy having kids is. Thanks again to Aaron who makes it all possible.

The Great Pumpkin

We'll it's that time. Pumpkin carving that is and Alex asked for a scary pumpkin this year. He turned out great. Alex is so excited about Halloween and being a pirate with is brother as a parrot. I'm glad he seems to be over his illness and could go back to school today. He's so funny running or skipping into school.

Aidan ended up with a fever last night and today so hopefully he will be feeling better in time for Halloween.

Aaron had a great buisness trip and ended up winning the gold tournament at the Greenbriar which is very impressive. He's back to the daily grind again today.

I was pretty shot last week physically and mentally. It's funny how things can scare you even if they didn't need to and with me I have an ever worrying mind in the first place so I tend to worry to an extreme. I was so happy to have Aaron return home to give me the love and support only a husband could give. Anyway, time moves on and everything is fine.

Have a great week! Happy Halloween!

Love

I've found myself thinking about love. I think that everyone just wants to be truely loved unconditionally like I love my children and my husband. I know that all I really want is to be loved unconditionally and know that thoughout my lifetime my husband and children and family will want to be there for me like I do for them. My family means everything to me and there is nothing I wouldn't sacrifice for them. I found myself reading a poem that I read quite often and thinking of how nice it is and would be to feel this loved and appreciated. Here is my favorite poem.

Everything

I find in you everything.
Everything good and everything pure.
I find in you everything.
Everything that makes me whole and makes me yours.

The most beautiful days I've seen,
I've seen with you,
The most beautiful dreams I've dreamed,
I've dreamed of you.

You give me a future that is bright and serene.
A future I could never have dreamed,
You give me hope and you make me believe.
Whatever I dream for, we can achieve.

Even when I doubt and think there's no way,
Your love keeps me going and making the best of each day,
Your trust and support you freely give.
They restored my faith in love and made me want to truely live.

I believe in the dream of the perfect life.
I believe your the one God plans to make my wife.
His plan for us is not to change.
But to stay this happy through all of your days.

This fire between us will continue to burn,
I will give you the world and ask one thing in return.
Just give me your love, it's all I need,
Your my love, my everything.

Anger- pretty much sums it up

We'll most of you know I was a victim of the Imperial Chiropractor Dr. Charles Johnson and his perverted watching patients in the bathroom for sexual reasons tapes. Yesterday he was given 3 years probation and I guess Friday he will be given his sentence of 1 year in jail. Some people may think, 'That's alot he's lost his license, he's going to jail, and will have probation,' but I really don't. I was at least happy that they called him a sex offender yesterday on the news so maybe he is going to be listed as one, who knows. One of the reasons I'm angry is because he was only charged with the 3 counts of his employees although when I charged him there were 32 counts against him for invasion of privacy. Yesterday they mentioned that just for the 3 counts he could have faced 9 years in prison, so if they would have charged him with just the counts I know if he could have spent 96 years in prison which with our judical system would have been maybe 10. I feel the most for the teenager that was working there and the thought of this being her first work experience. I feel for myself because I've never been the most trusting person and well this didn't help. I am so happy that I had Doctors I trusted prior to this because I don't see me going to anyone new. Oh well, just remember to get a high priced attorney that will get you out of everything and to make sure the attorney's name is big enough that no other attorney will want to deal with the case.

On a positive note I at least had posting Ebay items to keep my mind occupied last night. It's been fun selling stuff. If your into looking at Ebay you can find my auctions under zuke342. Aidan and Alex are doing great. Aidan's sitting up and crawling and Alex is well into everything. Aaron is gearing up for his big work trip.

Take care!

WOW! We've been busy!

Alex has been so busy with Pre-school, The Little Gym, Pre-religion class, Grandma's house for swimming, and meeting his new PAT's friend that I am exhausted! What's bad is he's doing all the work.

He LOVES Pre-school. He even walked in and let us leave him with Daddy being home on Monday, we couldn't believe it. He did show-in-tell last week. If you know Alex you know that it's amazing for him to be able to stand in front of sixteen kids and two teachers his first week and do show-in-tell. I wish we would have been prepared but in the parking lot I thought, "I wonder if that bag she put in his backpack Monday was for him to do show-in-tell today?" Luckily in the car we had GI-Joe and his magazine with the pirate ship he wants for Christmas. He told them about the Pirate Ship and well now I think we may have to buy that $65.00 ship since it was his first show-in-tell. BTW- everyday he asks if it's Christmas yet...

He has made a new friend at The Little Gym. About two weeks ago the teacher mentioned that Alex was finally talking to the other kids. Last week he and Sammy paired up and were talking to each other. This week when Sammy walked in he said "Sammy I've been waiting for you!" They proceeded to have a conversation and then went into class. By the end of class I noticed them holding hands, (sorry Daddy). I really enjoy kid conversations and watching how they make friends and truly care about each other.

I think we swam outside for the last time at Grandma's Sunday which is hard to believe anyway. After his pancakes and two cookies and a little juice- which he hasn't had in three weeks he was crazy! He loves it there.

Aidan has been busy too learning new things and getting teeth. His top teeth are coming in and he has three on the bottom. I'm assuming that the fourth bottom one will pop through after the top two come in. He is sitting up on his own very well although I put the Boppy around him just in case and he's rocking in the push up position so I think within the next couple weeks he will be crawling. He is such a wonderful little guy except if he's hungry. He LOVES food and I think would rip the food right out of my hand if he could and could chew! He loves Alex and Caesar and just laughs at the sight of them.

We'll that's all I'm tired thinking about all of it. Have a good week!!!

Happy Birthday Dad and Aunt Jodie

My Aunt Jodie and Dad were born 16 years apart on the same day. Can you imagine being 16 and getting a new brother on your birthday. My Grandma Rose let my Aunt name my Dad so she chose John. My Dad passed away 4 years ago. It's hard to believe that's it's been that long but it has. If you know much about me you know that we had a very strained relationship, to say the least, but no matter what he loved me more then almost everything. He would have done anything for me and did several times giving almost his last cent to help out when I needed it. Before he died I sat down with him in my little apartment in Cape and told him I forgave him for the things he had done but I never forgot. I realize that I wouldn't be alive without him nor would I be the person I am today. I resented alot of things that he did but realize too that he was a sick person. I regret that I didn't call him back when he called me the week before he died and that I haven't been as forgiving as I said. Today I lit a candle for him and asked that he be forgiven. Happy Birthday.

Alex's first day of preschool

Well today was Alex's first day of Pre-school. Alex inherited SHY genes. Apparently I was a shy child and so was Aaron so Alex is exceptionally shy around other people and other kids. I had been looking into Pre-school for some time but hadn't found anything I really liked. Alex's Pre-school religion teacher told me about Mustard Seed. Apparently this place has been around for years (like 30) and is in the back of a church tucked away between Barnhart and Imperial. We visited and I thought NO way until I walked inside and loved all of the things going on. I asked a Grandmother on the way out if her grandson liked it and she said, "Yes, he loves it and so did my 27 year old." I went back a couple times and thought this is the place, 'especially when Alex told me I could leave and pick him up later.' Then I found out that there were only openings in the afternoon class and well if you know me I'm not one for change and this would interfere with Alex's nap so I thought we would wait. One week later she called with an opening and that's how we got to today. When I picked Alex up he said, "Mom my day was GREAT"! What a good feeling. I also have a beautiful Turtle on the refrigerator. So that's that. I am so excited for Alex to make new friends and learn new things. It's wonderful being a parent!